11/19/2008 Entry: "adventures in dust"

Hello everyone! I am back from my adventure, and I must say, it far exceeded my expectations! God, that is, far exceeded my expectations! It's only now, that I'm just beginning to understand why the prophets of old fell on their faces, speechless in worship. The more I read the Bible, the more I get a tiny glimpse of His glory, of who He REALLY is...There have been 3 times in the past two months where I felt as small as a grain of sand...completely humbled in light of His holiness...Sure, I've known certain things, but it's as if I'm actually seeing it, for what feels like the first time..

Seriously...I have always been one to watch people cry during moments of "reflection", like the Lord's Supper, for instance. I have always wondered why I wasn't experiencing that kind of emotional gratitude...I was very grateful...wasn't i? Many times I've bowed my head, asked for forgiveness, thanked God for grace, and remembered what He has done for humanity, for me...not that one must cry to be grateful...But! I am learning that the more I read about Him, the deeper my love grows. The more I dig into the "Word", the more I am moved with awe, and emotion...the kind that makes me throw my hands in the air, and say, "I surrender. I am nothing. Have mercy on me."

We live in a society where EVERYTHING is about "us", so even taking a moment to reflect on anything but ourselves, is a rare occasion. To see Him, we must dethrone self. I think that's why we find it hard to agree with the "abandon all, and follow me" Jesus. We find every way around it because, we must have our self-created gospel. i am not saying i am innocent. i am most definitely guilty...

It's just, now that i am truly spending TIME "seeking" God...I really have to ask myself what is truth? What is faith, love, obedience, salvation? That's completely different than what i am accustomed to...Sure, i have asked before, but many times I have ignorantly fallen in line, following the blind....I have come to Him, "seeking" but not without my preconceived ideas about Him...

To be honest, i have no idea where this journey will end up... It has been so been so crazy to this point...just these past 2-3 months...or however long it's been :)

but at the end of this day...all i can say is...WOW! God is far more amazing than we give him credit for...

love.saradelight*

Replies: 6 comments

yes daily Bible reading is the key. Do what sara says LoL :P

Posted by AK @ 11/25/2008 10:26 PM CST

amen! I was always one to wonder the same thing.

I had prayed for that sort of emotional gratitude for years and well in the last year, I've gotten to that point. Now ever church service I make sure I've got a box of tissues near me. I may be the one to force the church to go to a cheaper brand of tissue LOL! =P Lord knows I try to conserve on how much tissue I use, but honey when the tears flow they flow.

Posted by Amanda Kate @ 11/25/2008 10:25 PM CST

lindz-ok ill write away tonite and share more about where i went/why :) by the way, i'm learning that when you come to God with FAITH LIKE A CHILD, that's when you see...it's like Lucy in Narnia..u should rent that, even if you've seen it...rewatch it...study her character...very cool little girl...and, when you READ THE WORD everyday, that's when he breathes life back into places that were once dead...and i mean like good amounts of time...not that it's about the time..but when you want something...when it's all you care about, you will spend QUALITY time getting in the word, no distractions...it's not something that happens over nite...it takes discipline, BUT! ITS POSSIBLE TO ANYONE WHO BELIEVES AND SEEKS HIM! HE PROMISES US THAT...so be encouraged! love ya!!!

n thank ya'll for reading :)

Posted by sara delight @ 11/19/2008 07:01 PM CST

Wow Sara, so so true!! Definitely puts things into perspective...Thank you so much for sharing your heart :)

Posted by Ashley @ 11/19/2008 03:53 PM CST

hmmm...i loved this. i can't imagine getting to the place you're at. i suppose it just takes time. and patience. and relentless seeking. when do we get to hear about your adventure, pretty face? :)

oh. and my surgery date has been changed. dec 17th. :) xoxo

Posted by lindz @ 11/19/2008 02:52 PM CST

beautiful thoughts to think on... thank you Sara for sharing.

Posted by Ronnie Lindsey @ 11/19/2008 10:17 AM CST